I read the single page alone, at my desk, with the door of my office closed.

And I sat there in silence for ten minutes, and then I got up and locked the door, and I wept, the kind that takes your whole body — for the first time since my father’s funeral.

I did not cry over the numbers on the page.

The numbers only confirmed what the notch in Mason’s eyebrow had already told me at the window.

I cried for the things the numbers stood in for.

Five birthdays I had not been at.