After 3 Boys, We Gave Up Our Dream of a Daughter—Then My Husband Called Me to the Hospital and Said, “There’s a Baby Here”

Not with instant uncomplicated love.

I want to be honest about that.

I did not look at Maya and instantly feel exactly what I felt when Leo, Eli, and Sam were born.

Those relationships had begun before birth.

This one began through shock.

Grief.

Responsibility.

Fear.