You’re paying so you can stop feeling what you’re feeling, and I’m not selling you that.

“And because the second I take eighty thousand dollars out of your feelings, that’s the arrangement forever.

Every time you feel bad you’ll send money and every time I need something I’ll have to work out whether asking makes me the person who takes money.

I’ve watched that happen to my sister.

I’m not doing it.”

I said, “Then what am I supposed to do?”

And she said: “Turn up.

That’s it.

That’s the whole thing and it’s cheaper than eighty thousand dollars and it’s much harder, which is why you went for the money first.”

Then I raised the other thing, which I had been building up to for a week and which was not about Beto at all.