There wasn’t.

That is the part I can never quite make them understand.

I did not decide to raise Keegan the way you decide to buy a house or take a job, after careful thought about whether you can afford it.

I decided the way you decide to catch something that’s falling.

There was a child on a rug asking where his father was, and his father was gone, and I was the one standing there.

That was the whole of it.