I had not created it in a fit of rage after the bus.

Some clear-eyed, careful part of me — the part that had been a museum registrar, that knew how to build and preserve a record — had begun preparing it months earlier, in small increments, while the rest of me was still making Julian’s favorite dinner and telling myself I was happy.

I had been getting ready to leave long before I let myself know that I was going to.

The folder was the physical evidence that some deep part of me had seen the truth years before my conscious mind was brave enough to act on it.

All the bus had done was give the brave part permission, at last, to open the drawer.

Chapter 13 — My Own Capital