Two hours and twelve minutes.

I do not do anything.

I do not light a candle and I do not talk to him and I have never once cried through the whole of it, which surprised me the first year.

I just sit for the length of time my husband held our son, in a chair, four years later, in a different house.

Dr.

Adisa asked me in the second year whether I thought that was healthy and I said I did not know, and she said, “Neither do I.

Let’s watch it.”