Both of those.

People want me to end this somewhere.

They want the part where I say that I have forgiven him, or that I have not, or that I have found peace, or that I have found purpose in the prenatal classes.

The classes are not purpose.

They are forty dollars and a parking validation and about nine evenings a year, and I do them because the fourth thing needs saying and because nobody else in that room is going to say it.

What I actually have is smaller and I think it is the true one.