I have thought about it for four years and I think it was right.

“But I wasn’t sure, Thea.

Not the way you need to be sure about that.

There’s no sure.

There’s a doctor telling you a very bad thing very gently and four people looking at you and a form.

“And if I told you, then there was a decision.

“And if there was a decision, then it was mine.

Forever.