He could have said that he had been awake since half past three and that he had spent the morning watching his wife be wheeled through a set of double doors for an operation nobody had planned.

He could have said that he had gone to Brian precisely in order to come back with it settled, so that he would never have to say any of it to me at all — which was true, and which he told me months later, and which is in some lights almost a kindness.

He could have said that his mother had been doing this to him since he was nine.

He said none of it.