Years earlier, after Adrian had come through his cancer treatment, a specialist had confirmed what the treatment had done to him: an irreversible condition, azoospermia, a complete and permanent inability to father a child.

And Evelyn had come to me, privately, before Adrian ever heard the results, and she had begged me — wept, actually, gripping my hands the way she was gripping my wrist now — never to let him know.

His pride, she said, would not survive it.

He would be destroyed.

She asked me to carry it for him.

To let the world believe, to let him believe, that the fault was mine.