You watched me wake up from the anesthesia, sick and frightened, and apologize to you — apologize to you — for failing to give you a child.

You knew, every single time, that there was nothing wrong with me.

You knew it was you.

And you let me cut my own body open to protect your pride, and you watched me thank you for it, and somewhere along the way, Adrian, my suffering stopped even bothering you.

It became normal.

It became the background of your comfortable life.