I told her I wanted to paint again.

I wanted to see Lucy and Ben more than once a year.

I wanted a home where friends could arrive without making an appointment weeks in advance.

And I wanted to stop assuming that one difficult conversation meant a relationship was beyond repair.

Back in Bluebell Valley I took the old wooden bird into the garden and drew it in my sketchbook.

I tried first to make it perfect, removing the chipped beak and straightening the repaired wing on the page.