He said it to me once, properly, in the July, sitting on my back step in Schertz at about eleven at night with a beer he did not drink.

He said: “Valerie.

I want to say a thing and then I’m not going to say it again, because I know you’ll argue and I don’t want the argument, I want it said.

“I put four million dollars in a room with that man.

“I did it to protect her.

I know that.

I have been over it four hundred times and I know what I intended.

“And what I actually built was an instrument where the only door that opened was the one that opened if she died.