And here is the thing: he was right, at first.

The woman who walked out of that cemetery on Monday afternoon was, in fact, shattered — as broken as a human being can be and still stand upright.

If Julian had needed me weak for a day, or a week, he would have found me exactly as weak as he had planned for.

In the raw first hours, I could barely form a sentence.

I could barely breathe.

He was not wrong that grief had leveled me.