That is a kind of devotion, pointed at the worst possible thing.

I looked across the room toward the hallway, toward the closet where a faded pink shovel had been waiting eleven years for a next time that its owner’s own father had personally made certain would never come.

And something in me that had been bending for eleven years, quietly broke, at last.

Chapter 6 — Diamond

I did not cry.

I did not scream.

I have since learned that this is what happens to some of us when a decade of deliberate cruelty is laid bare all at once: you do not shatter.