Knocking is what you do at a door you are not sure is yours.

I put my hand flat against the unlocked double doors and pushed them open, and I walked into the grand dining room of the family I had been told, for eleven years, did not want me.

There is a particular courage it takes to walk into a room you have spent a decade believing holds people who look down on you, and I want to be honest that I felt none of it as courage in the moment.

I felt sick.