And I think that is why, standing in that doorway, I felt something almost like relief underneath the shock.

For once the evidence was too large to argue with, too public, too well lit.

Thirty people had seen it.

I could not be talked out of this one, not even by myself.

And after years of being asked to disbelieve my own eyes, there is a strange, hard freedom in finally being handed a thing you cannot possibly explain away.

For three years I had turned every dollar over twice before I spent it.