The money was the cage, but the lock was made of feeling.

And the cruelest part is the shame that comes after, the shame my attorney’s face pulled out of me when he took off his glasses — the sense that I must have been stupid, that a competent woman does not live on eighteen hundred dollars while sitting on a fortune.

But I was not stupid.

I was manipulated, patiently, by a man who was very good at it, and there is an enormous difference between those two things, and learning to feel that difference — to set down the shame and pick up the anger, which is a far more useful thing to hold — was most of what my healing turned out to be.

Here is what I did with sixty-one million dollars and every reason to be vengeful: I asked the court for what was fair.