He Made Me Financially Dependent So I’d Never Leave — He Forgot I Used to Be a Risk Analyst, and I’d Been Preparing for Eleven Months
Every single act of the cage was performed in the vocabulary of love, and that is what made the cage so nearly perfect, because to name it, I would have to sound ungrateful — to stand in a large house, holding the keys to a luxury car, and claim I was not free, when a thousand women would have envied everything I had.
That is the trap inside the trap.
The comfort is not incidental to the control; the comfort is the control’s disguise, and its alibi, and its lock.
For years it worked on me the way it was designed to, because I kept measuring my situation by what I had, and what I had was lovely, and so I concluded I could not possibly be imprisoned.
It took me far too long to understand that the question was never what I had.
The question was whether any of it was truly mine, or whether all of it, down to the phone in my hand, might be taken back the instant I became inconvenient.