Standing in that alcove I did not know whether to weep with relief that my brother could walk or with rage that he had let me mourn a man who wasn’t dying.

I felt both, at a volume that had no bottom, and I understood only much later that they were the same feeling — that the size of my grief and the size of my love had always been the same size, and he had known it, and that was exactly why he’d been able to trust me to sell the lie without ever being told I was selling it.

“Because the crash that took Mom and Dad wasn’t an accident either, Marlowe,” he said, low.

“And the only way I could keep you alive long enough to prove it was to make everyone believe I was harmless.”