And Callum had come to every appointment.

He had held my hand in every waiting room.

He had looked the doctors in the eye and asked, in a voice thick with worry, whether they were sure they weren’t missing something.

He had been the most attentive husband a sick woman could ask for, and he had been the illness the whole time.

There is a particular cruelty in being made ill by the person you turn to for comfort while you’re ill, and it took me a long time to find the bottom of it.

Every symptom had driven me deeper into Callum’s care.