I had put her name on things.

And she had sat at that table doing arithmetic — measuring the distance between where she sat and where I sat, and deciding to close it with my death.

The child she carried was not, to her, a child yet.

It was an heir.

A legal instrument.

A way to make the theft permanent, so that even if everything else unraveled, a Merrick with a drop of Ludlow blood would still be standing in my grandfather’s yard.

I have forgiven a great many things in the years since.