I did not smile.

I want to be clear about that.

I felt no glee, standing there.

What I felt was closer to what you feel when a long fever finally breaks — not joy, exactly, but the vast cold relief of a poison finally, fully out in the open where it could no longer do its work in the dark.

Because I know how this looks from the outside — the wife who plays her cheating husband’s confession to a ballroom full of his colleagues — and I know there is a version of this story where I am the vengeful woman, the one who wanted spectacle, who savored his ruin.

And I have had to be honest with myself about how much of that was in me, because a little of it was; I would be lying if I said no part of me wanted him to feel the ground vanish the way he’d planned it to vanish for me.