And Jonah himself sent me little texts, the short careful kind an eight-year-old sends:

I ate dinner, Mom.

Everything’s fine.

Love you.

I read those on the floor of my mother’s emptying house and they were the one warm thing in my day.

It did not occur to me — why would it? — that my son was composing them alone, in a silent house, deciding which words would keep me from worrying.

I thought I was being reassured by my child.

I was being protected by him.