The house became the one place on earth where I could still half-hear his footsteps in the hall if I held very still and did not breathe.

I did not know, in those foggy weeks, that the same house was about to become the thing my father tried to take from me before my husband was even properly buried.

I did not know Declan had seen it coming from a long way off.

I only knew that the walls still smelled like him, and that I could not imagine living anywhere else.

People who have not lost someone suddenly imagine grief as sadness, a very large sadness, but sadness all the same.