I looked at it the way I look at any catastrophic number at work, with a kind of cold professional attention, filing it, cross-referencing it, understanding that it was not the whole picture but a single visible symptom of something larger underneath.

While I was still looking, a text arrived from my mother.

Deposit $10,000 tomorrow to finish paying for Rebecca’s suite.

You’re her older sister.

Do your part.

And that text, more than the drained account, more even than the words in the hospital room, was the thing that finished the old me off.