I Had Barely Finished Holding My Son’s Newborn Baby When a Nurse Pulled Me Aside and Whispered, “That Isn’t the Child He Left With”

For years, on and off.

Because grief did not disappear after one rosebush ceremony.

PART 29 — I NEEDED HELP TOO

I thought therapy was for them.

Then I went home.

Opened the baby blanket I had bought before Oliver’s birth.

And cried for Lily.

Then Leo.

Then became angry that I had never known them.

Then guilty because my grief felt selfish compared with their parents’.