My voice was barely working.

“Silas, why would you do that to yourself, over and over?”

He was quiet for a moment, gathering it.

“Two reasons,” he said finally.

“The first one — if I let another family adopt me, if I let myself have a new mom and dad and a new last name, then Daisy might find out someday.

And she might think I chose them.

That I’d traded her for a better family, the way hers traded me away.