That Friday morning I opened the banking app at a quarter to nine with Marcus beside me, and the Friday line was there but the five hundred and fifty dollar payment was not.

Is that what you expected, he said.

I expected to see it, I said, and I did not entirely know what I meant, except that three years of a thing leaves a shape in you, and the shape goes on expecting the thing after the thing is gone.

At nine o’clock, the hour that had taken the money every week before I finished my coffee, the account simply stayed where it was.

Nothing left it.