Love Isn’t Rent
She would stand at the bottom of the grand oak staircase, a mug of black coffee in hand.
My sister, Chelsea, and I would descend, and my mother’s eyes would sweep over us with the precise, ruthless calculation of a diamond appraiser sorting gems.
Fast, expert, and devoid of warmth.
Chelsea always received adjustments.
A velvet barrette straightened.
A linen collar smoothed.
A stray blonde hair tucked behind her ear with two manicured fingers.
It was an action that mimicked maternal tenderness but functioned as structural maintenance.
I received a glance.
A single sweeping pass from crown to floorboard.
Then her eyes would dismiss me and pivot to the day’s actual business.
I would stand frozen in the hallway, feeling like a parcel that had been weighed on a scale and stamped postage due.
There was a tape measure in our kitchen’s top drawer, bright sunflower yellow.
Every Sunday night, my mother took it out, wrapped it around Chelsea’s waist, and recorded the number on a small notepad shaped like a tiered wedding cake.