I put it there because I was beginning to lose my grip on what was real.

That is what sustained disbelief does to a person — it does not only fail to help you, it slowly unmakes your own certainty about your own life.

I would see Tristan trip Chloe, and I would say so, and Zachary would tell me, with total conviction, that I had seen no such thing, that I was inventing problems, that I was becoming paranoid and difficult — and he said it so often, and so calmly, that I began, in the worst moments, to wonder whether he might be right.

Whether I really was the unstable, dramatic woman they all described.