You’re ruining the aesthetic.”

And then he pushed me.

I want to be precise about this, because the precision is the whole point: it was not a violent shove.

It was worse than that, in its way.

It was careless — calibrated to humiliate rather than to injure, delivered with the offhand ease of a man flicking a crumb off a tablecloth.

My heel caught the slick stone lip of the fountain, and I went backward into the freezing water, and my pale green dress, the dress I had chosen so carefully, went instantly heavy and ruined against me.

The cold was shocking.