He did not regret humiliating me.

He regretted underestimating my value.

He had looked at his daughter and seen, suddenly, a woman married to power and running a fortune, and the warmth had switched on in his voice like a light on a timer — not because he had come to love me, but because he had just recalculated my worth.

That light on a timer is the image I cannot forget, because it revealed the whole mechanism of my father’s heart in a single instant, and once I saw it, I could never unsee it.

For thirty-two years, I had experienced my father’s coldness toward me as a kind of weather — something that simply was, a permanent climate I had been born into and could not change no matter what I did.