PART 12

Arthur died quietly in late November, with Natalie and Brandon at the hospital.

Harper was at school.

When Natalie called me, I sat down before answering.

I expected to feel relief, or bitterness, or nothing at all.

Instead I felt the complicated sadness that comes when a person dies before you have fully decided who they were to you.

I told Harper that afternoon.

We sat at the kitchen table with a cup of cocoa between us.