He brushed a few crumbs off the placemat with the flat of his hand.

He never once looked at the refrigerator.

He never opened the freezer.

I lay there and listened to my husband tidy the scene of our deaths, and I have never felt anything like what I felt in those seconds — a horror so complete it went past horror and out the other side into a kind of icy stillness.

Because his voice, as he worked, was so calm.

So domestic.