I wanted to tell Derek, so badly, that I knew, that I had him, that the camera he was so proud of destroying had never mattered at all.

Announcing it would have felt magnificent for about ten seconds.

And it would have destroyed everything, because the instant Derek knew a working lock remained, he would have found a way to break it — a new lie, a new threat, a lawyer, a way to make the footage disappear or to discredit it or to frighten me out of using it.

My father understood something about power that took me thirty years and a burn scar to learn: that the advantage of knowing something your enemy does not is the single greatest advantage there is, and that you protect it by keeping quiet, by letting them underestimate you, by allowing them the comfort of believing every lock is broken while one, the one that matters, stays whole and silent and waiting.