My husband files for divorce, and my 6-year old son asks the judge: ‘May I show you something that Mom doesn’t know about, Your Honor?’ The judge nodded. When the video started, the entire courtroom froze in silence.
On the first anniversary of the divorce filing, I found the navy dress at the back of my closet.
I had not worn it since the hearing.
I held it against myself and remembered the woman who sat with folded hands while strangers called her unfit.
She had looked calm from a distance.
Inside, she was trying not to fall apart.
I did not throw the dress away.
I took it to a tailor and had the hem shortened.
A month later I wore it to a dinner celebrating the completion of my first major audit project since returning to work.