And I’m only now understanding what that actually means.”

I looked at him for a moment, this man I had loved, and I felt no anger and no triumph, only a quiet, clear kind of peace.

“I’m glad you can see it now, Jason,” I said.

“Truly.

For your own sake, and for our children’s, I’m glad.

It matters that you see it, even if it can’t change anything between us.”