If I cried, he called it manipulation.

If I went silent, he accused me of contempt.

Now I could hear the same pattern in the messages he sent through his lawyer: Rachel is emotional.

Rachel is unreasonable.

Rachel needs help.

Maybe I did need help.

I needed a doctor for my ribs, a counselor to work through what had happened, and support to build a safe life for Lily.

That was not the same as being unfit to love my child.