My Husband Said the Funeral Van Would Take Me to a Clinic—Then a Loose White Cord Gave Me a Chance to Get Out
I took the papers home and put the next date on the calendar.
Her crib stood along the bedroom’s interior wall, clear of the drafty window.
I used the sleep arrangement the team had explained: on her back, on a firm fitted surface, without loose blankets or other things around her.
The yellow blanket was for holding her, not something I needed to pile into the crib because I was afraid she would be cold.
I stood beside her for a long time that first evening.