Not because I am a saint; I am not.

But because I understood, sitting in that terminal coffee shop with my mother’s oldest friend, that chasing Julian for money would have meant staying tied to Julian, and that every hour I spent trying to extract restitution from him would be an hour I was still, in some sense, in a relationship with him, still letting him occupy the center of my life, still measuring my well-being against his.

The money he’d taken was gone, and it was, in the scheme of what I earned, recoverable; my firm would make it back in a good quarter.

What was not recoverable, what I actually wanted, was the thing his whole family had spent five years draining that no lawsuit could restore: my time, my peace, my sense of my own worth, the years of my one life I had poured into the leaking vessel of their approval.