It was standing tall in the bright, quiet, hard-won freedom you had built for yourself — and barely thinking of him at all.

That last part is the piece no one tells you, and the piece I hold onto most.

For a long time I had assumed that if I ever got out from under all of it — the marriage, the fraud, the lawsuits, the slow grinding fear — I would spend my new freedom savoring his ruin.

I imagined I would follow the news of his collapse the way you follow a game you’re winning.

And for the first weeks, maybe, I did.