But that first night, walking to the car in my ruined dress, what I felt was not grief.

It was the specific, buoyant relief of a woman who has finally, after two years, been allowed to stop guessing.

Chapter 6 — The Car

A private car pulled to the curb, and I got in, and I lowered the window to say one last thing to the man standing dripping in his doorway.

“You’ll have my divorce papers by tomorrow morning,” I told him.

Jonathan laughed, a mean, disbelieving laugh.