At home I made a list in a notebook.

Not an inventory of Trevor’s failures.

An inventory of what I would and would not do next.

I would give the truth to investigators.

I would pay for independent legal advice if he chose to cooperate.

I would not hand money to strangers demanding repayment of his debts.

I would not promise him forgiveness to secure a confession.

And I would not let Kristen or anybody else use my age as an excuse to seize control of my life.