To negotiate him down.

To go pale and transfer the money just to make the ugliness stop, the way I had made every ugliness stop for seven years.

He had ordered me out of the house fully certain I would beg to stay.

He had forgotten to check whose house it was.

I want to mark that word — no — because of how much it cost me to say and how little it should have.

It is the smallest word in the language, one syllable, a thing a toddler learns before it can walk.