Exhausted.

Grieving.

Trying to care for a newborn daughter while mourning another daughter whose name already felt dangerous to speak aloud.

So eventually we made a decision that seemed reasonable.

Chloe was too young to understand.

We would tell her later.

The problem was that later kept moving.

At five:

Too little.

At eight:

Why burden her?

At twelve:

She was already having trouble adjusting to middle school.

At fifteen: