Four minutes.

I could have done it on the fifteenth of October.

The office was open.

I drove past that building nine times in those seven weeks.

Dr. — I did not have a therapist then either, I had Deloris Pfaff and a woman at work called Renata.

And what Renata said, when I told her, was: “Why didn’t you just look?”

And I have had two years on that question and the answer is three things and none of them is stupidity.

The first is that nobody told me the index existed.