“Say the rest,” I said.

“Sam—”

“Hannah. We have never once said any of this and we’ve worked eleven feet apart for four years.”

So she said it, and it took about six minutes, and I have not been the same since.

She said she knew by the second year. Not suspected. Knew — she had seen the wrists at the pharmacy, she had the texts, she had watched me not order food at a restaurant because I had not been given money.

She said she made one attempt. The pharmacy. She said the words come home with me right now and I pulled my hands away and got in the car, and she stood in a parking lot and watched me drive off.