Everything else — everything the world knows about that night, everything on the billboard, everything in the documentary I have never watched — happened while I was unconscious.

That is the thing I have never been able to explain to anyone. People think I’m modest. I’m not modest, I’m nineteen and I’m fairly arrogant about several things.

It’s that I have no access to it. I did something for about four minutes and then I stopped existing for a day and a half, and when I came back, I was a person the entire country had opinions about.

My grandmother wrote a text and my aunt released it and my father took a picture and the news put my face on television, and every single one of those decisions was made in a room I was not in.

Even the good ones. Especially the good ones.

Senator Chase held a press conference to protect me. That was kind and I am grateful and nobody asked me. Westbridge renamed the courage award after me and I found out from a girl in my chemistry class.