“That’s why I went to her apartment,” she said quietly.

“The night she hurt me.

I wasn’t trying to fight her.

I wanted her to admit it, on the recording, before the wedding — because I was terrified that if I came to you with only a suspicion and no proof, you would think I was just a jealous daughter trying to keep her father to herself.” And there it was, the shape of my own failure, laid gently in front of me by the person I had failed.

I keep coming back to what it must have cost her, that night at Vivienne’s apartment — because I understand it now in a way I could not have then.